This crop top is representative of the freeing feeling I’ve been getting from accepting that there is power in accepting where I am in my life.
Let me type that again for the folks in the back:
“There is power in accepting where you are in your life right now.”
I would question why I haven’t really considered this truth sooner, but alas, I’ve been chasing my own tail trying to find needles in this haystack called life. (Often times, the ones I’ve found I’d looked over a number of times before seeing it.)
I’ve been so busy focusing on where I’m not at yet, what I’m not good at, and resultantly, where I still can’t go. So much so, that I rarely ever remember to acknowledge where I am. Right now. In this moment.
I don’t acknowledge the skills I DO have enough. I don’t acknowledge how far I HAVE come enough — despite where people or society deem I should be. And that, my friends, is a problem — a big one. I feel like this little revelation of mine has been steadily tapping on my door for some time now. And over time, the taps have turned into knocks, banging harder and harder. Adding a doorbell ring in there here and there, too.
And I’ve finally opened it. When I opened it though, I was slow to let in what was behind the door — self-actualization was like “Hey, can I come in? We need to talk.” I looked at it like how Marie was looking at Latrice when she came knocking on her door about who killed her son in Seven Seconds. (Y’all, that show tho)
Anyway, long story short, I let it in and embraced it, and though it’s just the beginning of our relationship, I feel like such a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders already. The pressure that mounts from focusing primarily on what you can’t do, what you’re not good at, and where you can’t go, gets really heavy really fast. And I want to be free y’all. Like my belly in this crop top. I just don’t have the energy at this point for that pressure that comes mostly from myself. You know? Here’s to a more pressure-free life. Who’s with me?
STYLE PHOTOS: MYESHA EVON