All right, before I get into this bomber jacket with wide leg pants conundrum, can I be real with y’all for a minute? I typically have a hard time talking about these sorts of things. Don’t want to come off as a negative nancy, but I have to get this off my chest. I have to remember why I blog in the first place. In my day-to-day, I don’t have as much time to write out my frustrations and self-deprecating thoughts. It’s easy to hold stuff like this in for the sake of appearing “strong” and whatnot, but mental health, amirite? Sharing is caring amirite?
These past two weeks I’ve suffered from a severe case of self-doubt caused by letting people’s opinions of me and my skillset get under my skin.
Other underlying symptoms have included that pesky imposter syndrome, lack of motivation, excessive urge to sleep through the pain, feeling lost, questioning whether or not I’ve gone down the right path, and just wanting to give up altogether. One of the other causes is people seeming to do everything in their power to not let me be great. However, as someone who tries her hardest not to place blame on anyone, I had to pull back and analyze that thought bubble. “…people seeming to do everything in their power to not let me be great.” After having a long overdue ugly phone cry with a really good friend, and some put-me-in-my-place conversations with another great friend,
“I asked myself “Is it a matter of people seeming to do everything in their power to not let me be great? Or is it a matter of me allowing those folks to have that kind of “power” over me? To the point where I essentially disable myself?”
Some tough questions, right? Questions that were a good reminder for me though to not forget about my risk-taking, not afraid to leave toxic spaces/people behind ways. They were also a good reminder to get out of my own head. The best way to do that? Write it out. Scream it out, cry it out. Stop filling the gaps with conclusion jumping nonsense. Get answers to hard questions and clarity when things aren’t clear. Ask for help when it’s the hardest to do so and put that self-deprecating energy into doing good work. Oh, this one’s for me, take my own advice more, haha.
I was so distraught that I let it affect my work, and unfortunately, you’re not good if you’re not producing good work at the end of the day. What are your thoughts on this subject? Do you suffer from living in your head and being in your own way? Let’s chat about it in the comments below.
Oh and let me know your thoughts on this look.
It’s a different one for me, but I’m obsessed. I’m loving wide leg pants right now, and with the weather here in NYC being warm sometimes, the bomber jacket is a nice in-between-seasons piece. And with that, this is how I need to be more often:
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